Difficulty, Opposition & Lack of Faith ~ the past two months

I haven't written the past two months because I have been going through some very hard times, which have forced me into the cave of my room. A place where I find comfort in my warm comfortable bed and side table that also acts as a refrigerator and dining room table so I never have to leave! It was been a difficult transition for me, but I have also noticed that other people's lives are mirroring that of my own. My challenges are not so unique. As I find myself withered, crawling out of the darkness and finding my way towards that hint of light in the distance, I must admit that I am becoming more aware of my spiritual path now, more than ever. This is what I have discovered.

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I understand now, that we are in a strong energetic cycle that is pulling us towards our purpose in life. I believe very strongly, that we choose our "destiny" or our spiritual path for ourselves, with the help of God, master spirit guides (angels) and loved ones. This past year, more than ever, people have been pushed beyond their comfort zones, which has given us the opportunity to figure out what we want, who we are and what it is precisely, that we want our lives to be. Maybe some of you, like myself, have tried out different career options to find one that really speaks to you. Maybe some of you have had the earnest desire to travel, to seek adventure and to feel free. Some of you may have found that it's as though a relationship has been severed with a knife, feeling like it came out of nowhere. Or perhaps this relationship is breaking apart in fragments like ice. The past year has been full of ups and downs, and has been pushing one's comfort zone with patience. With many people unemployed and the economy failing, we have had to prioritize what exactly it is that will bring fulfillment.

We have had plenty of time to discover this about ourselves, so the last two months have been about taking action; no longer only wishing, hoping and praying. The purpose of breaking out of these comfort zones is intended to remove barriers we have built for protection that no longer need to be there. For example, reaching out to others in time of need and realizing the importance of community (think of the fires in Colorado and the flooding of Hurricane Sandy). We have been so used to operating in a detached mindset from those around us, not realizing that we are all brothers and sisters. We are all connected to one another and deserve compassion always, even in the midst of our mistakes.

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When it comes to what we really want, we have to be genuinely honest with ourselves. If we want to find love, we will be pushed to find it. Any reaction to run back and hide will not work, because running from the soul's yearning desire will instill opposition. Opposition is simply a tool being used to set us back on track. NOW is the time to put those desires into action. That is one reason why the economy is suffering and certain systems are failing. Those "old" systems are no longer what people want- the old systems are not serving our higher being. Corporations that do not serve the individual with empowerment, good health, security and confidence, are not going to be successful unless a society believes in it. How can the soul achieve what it needs to, with this kind of system in place? It can't. For many, the only way a person will choose to follow their path is to be forced into it. I, myself, am being forced into many things outside of my comfort zone. I have to stand up for myself. I am being forced to stop the manipulation, passive aggressive reactions and aggression taking place in my life. I am being forced to recognize that a conventional career will not bring me happiness, fulfillment or purpose. I am being forced to realize that having faith in myself is the only way I will achieve true success.

One thing we all do, is find reasons for our mistakes and failures. Who can we blame for the doubt we have in ourselves? We may ask ourselves, who can take responsibility for the reason why I haven't been able to find love? I find myself doing that too....until recently I wondered- what would happen if those situations and attitudes were eliminated? Would I still feel resistance? The truth, is that I would because I have agreed with others that I cannot achieve the success I want. I have agreed to accept how others defined me, long before I even figured out how to define myself. The reality is that, those are only projections. It really isn't fair to your soul, that you would allow another person to "make" you into the person you are today. YOU must define YOU. Allowing a family member, friend or society define who you are, will only hinder your success. It is necessary to acknowledge that another person's actions did in fact bring you to a fork in the road because we must have gratitude for the situations that have motivated us to question who we want to be.

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We must have discernment when deciding what boundaries are no longer necessary to have in place and what boundaries need to be established. We need to be able to clearly and definitively define what behavior we will not tolerate from others and ourselves. Should another person really MAKE you into who you are today? Certainly not!! You are full of divine light, beauty and purety because of you. Be proud of the light you give to others and be content with your own Divine beauty. Awareness is key. Being aware that you are bothered by another person's behavior, may allow you to establish boundaries with that person. It may also bring awareness to how you feel about yourself. How better to recognize these traits in oneself, then to first see them in those who are closest to us? The best way to know how you DON"T want to be, is to see others acting in a way you do not approve of. It is at that particular moment, we stop and think, "I never want to be like that." Without that thought process, change would be slow, and perhaps minor. This is a fast paced time that encourages swift change.

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 The moment we accept that unconditional love is exactly what we deserve, it will flow effortlessly. The same is true of taking a leap of faith. When we do what we are meant to do, it won't feel like work and it won't be draining. It will be purely fulfilling, uplifting, exciting and freeing. If your angels believe in you and you believe in you, you truly cannot fail. You will be guided every step of the way. You will know what is right. You will know discernment. You will see every detail on this spiritual map we call life.
  

The Paranormal Explained....

The paranormal. It intrigues most of us because there are so many unanswered questions. What KINDS of spirits exist? Were the monsters we were told didn’t exist, actually a white lie to make us feel better? How do I know if I am being haunted or if it is an explainable event?

  I’ve noticed that just in the past 2-3 weeks, there has been a significant amount of phone calls and emails to our paranormal team, Haunting Investigations. People have sent in questionable photographs and most clients are reporting activity centering around their own children. This can be an absolutely terrifying experience, especially when it is happening to you personally. It’s a whole other situation when you watch paranormal shows on TV. But is it really harmless? The fact is, it can be harmful whenever you bring any kind of paranormal interaction in your life, even the simplest act of watching shows about a haunting. That is because when you engage in a show that shakes your core, you are directly receiving energy from it and also giving your energy to it. With that kind of direct connection, you allow your energy levels to be drained, and can even allow the spirits to be drawn to you (although this is rare). There is one show in particular that I personally stay away from, because it seems to center around negativity. TV shows that center around negative paranormal experiences will cause you to fear it, which is exactly what you don’t want to do! FEAR takes away our power. Our strong sense of self begins to scatter because fear instills doubt in oneself. Let me remind those out there that NOTHING interferes with you without your permission. That means that you have control over your energy field and who interacts with you physically, emotionally and spiritually. However, it is also possible that permission may have been given long before you were even born; in a series of past lives that you have carried with you into this one. When we carry these kinds of contracts from one life to the next, it becomes a reoccurring cycle and pattern of behavior. That is why it is important to identify whether a paranormal experience is personal. We do so in the Spirit of Intention classes with past life regression readings. In my opinion, most of the time, paranormal activity is personal. Many people are in fact, haunted! It then has little to do with the location, because the interactions will continue when you move.

One of the founding members of Haunting Investigations has experienced the paranormal from a very young age. He grew up in a haunted home in Pennsylvania. Objects would be thrust around, cabinets would be opened with no one in the room and even apparitions were seen. When Brian moved from Pennsylvania to Colorado, the activity started up again in his home. Strong electro-magnetic fields would spike in response to questions he would ask. A plastic shelf flew out onto the floor in the middle of the night. Shadows were seen. Even Brian knew that it was him who was haunted.

When we look at the cycle of time we are currently in, we notice that a lot of people seem to be triggered by past events that cause an aggressive or defensive reaction. It is difficult to understand a person’s reaction without first understanding their personal history. The same is true of ghosts who are reacting to an event of their past. Depending on the astrological time we are in, paranormal activity can be heightened and intensify. I believe that’s what is happening right now. Because the living is in such an emotional and at times, chaotic frame of mind, the living feeds that emotional chaos to the environment around them. If there are in fact, ghosts in your environment, your energy would affect them and vice versa. It is possible that your emotions may be chaotic due to the cycle of time we are in now and the situations you have gone through in the past. But it is also possible that the emotional turmoil you are experiencing is not your own. Combine your emotions with the energy a spirit has imprinted in a home and you will understand the chaos that will ensue.

 When we keep our bodies, our souls and our homes clean in an energetic sense, we are able to calm the environment we live in and those who occupy the space with us. Those who create a beautiful ambiance in their home will also be neutralizing the space they live in. You can do this with meditation, letting light come in through the windows, decorating with healing crystals, de-cluttering and playing beautiful uplifting music. If you still find the paranormal events to be persistent, perhaps it is time to look inside yourself and find meaning in the messages you are receiving. Ask yourself, HOW am I reacting? Is it with fear, anger or resentment? Is it truly justified to be reacting with these particular emotions? What KIND of paranormal activity are you experiencing? Is it mischievous, playful or neutral? Are you simply observing an event that would have occurred otherwise or do you feel a direct connection to this spirit? It is important to write down and analyze your dreams as well because this is often when spirits relay their message to you. Sleep is a good time for spirit communication because you are more open in a meditative, calm and neutral state of mind. Look into the Spirit of Intention classes or read Michelle’s new book, The Clairvoyant Path, to understand the simple process of guided meditation. This kind of meditation allows you to look inside past lives; offering insight to a personal connection you have with the spirit.

Where Does All the Anger Come From??

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In meditation class the other night, one of the women asked why people can be so mean. This inspired me to really look into the behaviors of people and what is affecting them spiritually. Many people believe we are separate from one another- we live completely separate lives from that of strangers. We believe that no one can understand who we are, what we have been through and what we are going through in life. We believe that others can’t possibly understand the demands, stresses and crisis we have dealt with- and we use that reasoning to justify anger towards one another. Because no one can possibly know what we are going through, we secretly resent them for not caring about us- not recognizing us as a soul with deep feelings and emotion. We resent them for not respecting the individuals we are with all of our intricacies.

Take a look at these two pictures of frozen water molecules that were sent a positive or negative intention. The picture above is of love and thanks. The words were prayed over the water molecule, which actually changed the molecular structure of the water! The picture below is of hate. Hate and disgust was projected on this container of water before it was frozen.You can see the extreme difference between the two. Because we are made of 65% water, can you imagine what you are doing to your own body when you project anger and ill will?

If we would instead, look at ourselves from a neutral stand point, we will understand that each of us envelops everything. Our lives mirror one another. I was at one time poor and at one point rich- I was compassionate and I was forceful. I was the victim AND I was the aggressor. I cannot be- without the other. As we need darkness to define light, we need both sides of the spectrum to consider ourselves balanced. When we can see life from this point of view, we will finally understand that we are all alike. When I get angry that someone has cut me off with their car, I have to understand that I once was that aggressor towards someone else too. When I see violence that seems incomprehensible and cruel, I must understand that my justification of my own mean actions towards another comes from the same source (even if it appears to be a miniscule event). So my mean action towards another is really no different than a cruelty towards another. Both come from the same place. Just as sending a little card comes from the same source as giving a gift you bought from the store. The point is in the intention behind the action.

Women Impowerment with Creativity

In the past month, I have been altering the way in which I receive insight and psychic messages. I’ve chosen to allow the messages of spirit to come to me, instead of initiating the questions and waiting for an answer. I have been enacting my crown chakra, in a way that messages are constantly being filtered through.  When I allow spiritual messages to come through the higher chakras, I won’t come from a place of insecurity in my questioning.
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In doing so, I have received very clear answers.

 

Last week, I dreamt that I was standing on earth, looking to the sky with people all around me. They didn’t notice as they were distracted with everyday life and I watched in amazement as four planets moved towards the earth. The planets were so close it was almost as though the earth had four additional moons, except that they were larger and more pronounced. As I was watching the planets move closer, I began to see little stars all around the sky twinkle and move around as though they were fireflies. However, the message I was receiving was that these little stars were actually souls twinkling and traversing across the sky. It was incredible to watch them playfully dance and it was this moment that I realized something big is coming…..something spiritually complex and exciting.

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I’ve been getting many messages from spirit lately, especially about the playfulness of creativity. I did a reading for a woman named, Gaye, in class who was asking what could make her more clairvoyant. As I connected to my crown, I saw her coloring with a children’s coloring book and doing crafty things with her imaginative spirit. I saw that she was currently giving too much attention to the mental body, which can limit us in so many ways. When Gaye was able to tap into this playful spirit and feel childlike again, her creativity, passion and clairvoyance grew, allowing her spiritual body to preside.   
                                         
Yesterday I was reading my friend Joely, who is also a psychic medium, but finds it difficult to read herself. When I looked at her chakra body, again I saw the second chakra light up. Immediately, I saw past lives, from which she carries a lot of darkness, specifically when she was an oracle in Greece. Now I understand more why she and I connect so much, especially with the demonic paranormal cases that she and I come across far too often for our liking! I was also an oracle in a past life and have struggled with that same dark intensity. I was seeing the abuse and emotional turmoil Joely endured when her power and sensuality was stripped away, in order to manipulate her psychic powers. When I looked further into her past, I also saw that she carried a lot of emotional baggage from her lifetime as a gypsy; a lifetime she chose to regain her power. While she was able to regain her power,    she chose to do this by becoming flighty, always escaping. She was isolating herself, while also manipulating and stealing, due to her inability to trust strangers for fear of the pain they could cause her. I asked my spirit how she can relieve this darkness and within a few seconds, I saw the faeries. It became clear that they are her saving grace! The faeries enable Joely to feel adventurous, free and playful, much like the gypsies, without the need to find power from manipulation. The faeries have enabled her to be mischievous in play, like that of an innocent child. The jungle like atmosphere I was seeing the faeries in, was the ideal environment for Joely, who is seeking the freedom she honored from the gypsy days when she traveled across Europe. 

And then I read my mother, who desperately seeks adventure, change and play; activities that mirror her own Gypsy lifetime as well as the Gemini moon sign within her. However, my mother is more connected to the Native American culture, because her main spirit guide is her former father, a Native American Chief whose purpose is to guide her to her true self. I saw a different side of using this childlike imagination, coming from the same origin as artistic creativity. Finding time to make the mind still and connect to the earth as the Native Americans did in spiritual rituals, was the way my mother would find her grounding. When she was able to connect to this lifetime and to her father, images flooded my mind with the wild horses, the adventurous fight for survival on horseback with handmade arrows and ritualistic dances around the brilliant fire that brought her ancestors forward. It was a magical image that spoke to her spirit in a profound moment of time. 

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These are the experiences I’ve been noticing in the past month that are speaking to all of us, despite the differences in our intricate, multifaceted lives. I’ve noticed that using your imagination is especially a message for women who desperately need to re-define our own power, separate from the way that men have. We need to regain our sense of inner power through the second chakras, symbolizing our sensuality, creativity and passion. Gardening is an excellent way to directly connect to the earth and receive her energy. Crafts, imaginative play with children or quiet moments envisioning past lives in which we were empowered women are ideal ways to connect with this source. As always, something magical and profound is coming. So allow yourself to let it in. No longer expect chaos, as chaos is no longer serving our higher good. Expect transformation, new ideas, unexpected successes and spiritual advancement.

Paranormal client's connection to the soldier

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The Haunting Investigation Team, of which I'm a member had a client who has felt the dark presence of a person. This person caused depression and anger in his home, which has affected relationships and instigated conflict. The left bedroom (East side) is where the darker presence is the strongest. He was thinking of moving into the room, but currently avoids the room completely. When he was in this room, he has felt the dark presence at the foot of the bed, a weird heavy, feeling. Later, he felt weight on the bed like someone was sitting next to him. More recently he has felt the entity in his face and heard footsteps at the end of the bed. He confronted the entity at this time, in the name of Jesus Christ but the feeling didn't go away. The activity didn’t worsen or get better, it just stayed the same.  A psychic has told him that the entity is a male wearing coveralls. The east room is not closed off, but he feels the entity dominates that room, although at times, he gets goosebumps and a weird feeling in the kitchen. When interpreting this energy, I did get my own images of a male.

He is a Confederate soldier who died on the battlefield. The two were good friends, who went into battle together. What I'm seeing is kind o f like a Forrest Gump scene when he was in war in Vietnam; only this particular battle is occurring in the U.S., within a deep wooded area. The soldier falls to the ground, and the client is by his side as he dies. The soldier has been coming to our client's bedside, almost as a residual moment in time. He comes to him in angst, much like how they felt during battle. The purpose of his interation is to remind our client of the suffering, the violence and the guilt he felt. The client still carries that sense of PTSD and guilt in this lifetime. He wanted our client to remember having felt guilty for leaving behind someone in a foreign environment of chaos and destruction. He wants our client to remember this feeling of despair so that he won't carry out the same actions and feelings with his own son. It's almost as though this spirit is asking him to remember the pain he went through losing someone in such a bad situation, when it could have been avoided. They didn't have to be in battle. Don’t’ let the same happen to the relationship with the son. Rekindling this relationship will release the cord attachment to the former soldier friend, allowing him too, to peacefully transition.

Key Point: your indecisiveness and guilt is what is hindering you from moving on, creating new, successful and happy opportunities with your son.

Tarot: XX Rejuvenation (upside down). Divorce, failure to face facts, indecision, procrastination, alienation of emotions, delay, disappointment