At this time, there are great attachments between you and the spirits you have healed in a past life. I see you working in medicine, possibly a doctor in Africa, but also involved in the activism of that time. Their attachments to you in this lifetime have a desperate pull, which at times, is causing emotional sickness and strife. In this prior lifetime, your purpose was to heal those who were ill and unable to care for themselves in the environment in which they lived. you took on their weaknesses so they could heal. In this lifetime, you decided to change that pattern and life more selfishly (thus meeting your two close girlfriends whose life goals in this aspect mirror yours). I use the word selfish, not in a negative sense, but a term meaning that you were ready to live according to your own desires and needs. Having lived in a strenuous environment in the past, you now strive for comfort, luxury and indulgence. You have seen the importance of living life according to your own standards. However, you were unable to completely let go of that responsibility, which is why the energy of the past has continued to latch on. When you had given up a lot of your own power to save others who were suffering, you had given up comfort and had also lost your sense of hope. One issue may arise when transformation periods begin. With a lack of confidence in your decisions and without having hope, you are stuck feeling nothing but strife and struggle. The key here is that in our current astral energy, transformation allows never-ending opportunity! This time is no longer intended for you to feel strife with transformation. It's important to remember this in order to change your expectations of outcome.

The other influencing energy is a motherly energy who steals from your power center. This in turn, makes you feel dis-empowered, weak, vulnerable and sensitive to outcomes. This does not allow you to feel the hope and faith in your surroundings, to trust circumstance and decision, to see expansive opportunity when the time allows for it. It is a struggle with the self, not allowing yourself to feel encouraged. you need a sense of fulfillment. This comes from healing others without giving up your power source. Healing others by allowing them to heal themselves. Showing them the way. Leading the course, inspiring from within. Nutrition, exercise driven support groups, activity, building strength. Giving the body empowerment and strength allows yourself and others to spiritually and emotionally heal (thus the reason you may be drawn to occupational therapy, which encourages independence in spite of physical obstacles).



Tarot Celtic Cross:

Eight of Wands (Reverse): Impulsive acts, domestic dispute- as if throwing the problems up into the air at once, not dealing with them one by one. Not allowing time to soothe. The wands (the suit) fall to the ground before the issue can be resolved. Two people cannot solve them alone. The inability to juggle what obstacles are being thrown at you.

Eight of Swords: Standing alone in face of opposition. Seeing every issue laid out in front of you, with no support- isolating yourself from others; self-pity. Too many issues to take on at once- seek out your support systems. One person cannot solve every problem, especially when trying to face each of them all at once. Seeing the whole mountain stand before you.

ten of Cups (Reverse): Not acknowledging your accomplishments; not feeling gratitude for all that has been accomplished. Recognize successes. Understand that many obstacles from the past have been solved.

Three of Pentacles (Reverse): Have you forgotten about play? Daydream; play with the images of your hopes and desires; understand that the little achievements of day dreaming lead to a bigger picture. Understand that in the big scheme of things, every small step you have taken can manifest into something grand. Don't use money to solve the inability to find freedom in play. The child-like, care free spirit is what is needed. Using money to show you the way may harm you in the long run and distract you from what is most important- quality play time! Make shapes out of clouds in the sky. Dance freely and passionately to the wild beat of drums.

Nine of Pentacles (Reverse): The Pentacles represent money. Seeking to reunite with the vision of your extravagant self; full of wealth, indulgence and what appears to be many material successes. Although these appear to be ideal for you, they are actually unfulfilled. This may be why the desire to spend money to have fun is not ultimately creating happiness.

Three of Cups (Reverse): Lack of security in one's family and personal relationships. The cup (card suit) represents emotion. In this tarot card, it has fallen over and without a strong support system, there is no one to guide you through it. Although you have learned from your past life that it is not anyone's duty to carry your emotions for you, this is a reminder card that is showing you how important it is to have strong support systems so that you will have the confidence to carry yourself. If this is done, loyal supporters will follow without requiring that you even ask them for help and guidance.

Six of Cups: This card indicates that you are holding your emotions inside, refraining them from view, but are willing to show your true self tho those who care about you and want to know how you are doing emotionally. Although you have hidden emotions you keep from others, you are willing to show your true heart, barring all in a generous compassion for others to experience. Offering a piece of yourself to those you care about. Nostalgia.

Ace of Wands: The feminine influence in your life. She controls your ability to be mobile in thought and action. She is seen as a guiding light, but in fact, she is contributing to your demise. Look at the motherly figures in your life. Are they supportive of you developing your sense of self? Do they encourage and accept your empowerment? It is also very possible that you are fighting your own femininity. Becoming empowered in the feminine and ACCEPTING the feminine qualities will ultimately give you the power and control back that you desire. Peace and calm will replace chaos and doubt.